We couldn’t please everybody, so I have those otherwise

Anyway, a friend told me today that somehow she had an unpleasant experience with one of my otherwise. I didn’t ask my friend details about it but she felt that she should inform me. I would be plastic, if I say I didn’t like what she did.

To those who doesn’t like me, I tell you this: I don’t go around telling my friends to hate my enemies. So for whatever reason they have that would lead them to hate you as well, is beyond my control. I have a friend who told me the reason of her hating my “otherwise” and that is not because of me but because of the “attitude” shown to her that she is not comfortable of.

If you are one of those people who hates me or considers me as your enemy; my friends are individuals and with that said, they have their own minds and principles. I may be their friend, but I don’t rule their life. I believe that there are valid reasons for every action of my friends. So if you are a victim of their negative actions or you consider their acts negatively, please think of the many reasons that may go about it. Maybe you have nothing to do with it, but she just feel like doing it on you because she’s depress or something. I always try to understand people, so I hope you will as well. Maybe this world would be a better place if you start doing it now.

PEACE!

I know there are people who doesn’t like me, but who doesn’t have someone disliking them? Even “Saints” have those. So, who am I to be more “goody” than they are?

So, what do I have to say to my haters?

“If you have nothing good to say, SHUT the #@^% UP!”

I think for now, I consider that as an accomplishment! If you know me personally, I WAS a “war-freak” but I guess when you have almost everything you wanted in life, you just learn how to understand and symphatize with others.

So what changed me?

Firstly, I would like to mention LOVE. That word is complicated, but one reason why I believe in “God” is because I believe in love. As they say, God is Love! I am in love with a person I know who loves me as well. On what level you might ask? Well, to the point, that we’ve faced teenage life together, learned love and those other “first” special things. We hated each other at one point, but things just have its own way of linking us back together. Most of the time, we’re friends who openly discuss things about life in general. Do we understand each other? I guess pretty much, yes! We learned to understand each other, by knowing each others background. After all, he is the only man I have known for the longest time in my life and remained to be in touch. He accepts me for who I am – FULLY! He is not funny, but he makes me happy.

So, with Love comes LUST? To be honest, I guess TV has been helpful in my case. Whether TV is making me crazy, or it is just the best therapy for this kind of situation. Did I mention, my love and I are worlds apart? If I haven’t, well now you know we are. There’s only one thing he asked of me, “be good.” So, I do it the very best. Let’s go back to TV. I haven’t had sexual partner for quite some time now, so I watch TV to somehow fill that patch of my life Not that I watch porn and satisfy myself, but I guess just seeing those romantic movies (mostly romantic comedy) and seeing those people making love, is satisfying enough for me. I don’t play with myself if that is what you are thinking. I plainly watch it and let my heart feel the love. So porn is not effective on me, I am more into seeing the “love” in the story, rather than the “ahh.. ahh.. ohhh” thing.

I love my FAMILY! Quote from Lilo and Stitch, “This is my family. It’s small and it’s broken, but it’s good. Yeah, it’s good.” My family is just perfect for me.

One important aspect in life is MONEY, so do I have that? I don’t earn as much as most of the people around me, but I earn enough to slowly get on my feet. I know I would get to the point in where I would accomplish all of my dreams. So, now I am working hard on achieving it and enjoying my career as I go along with it.

With the busy schedule I have, it was hard for me to be in touch with my FRIENDS. In life, as we experience things, we learn from it and GROW. I’ve lost a few friends and gained a lot. In friendship, I have learned that it is important to have a balanced give and take relationship, because if one thing is short, then it would just fall off.

I value each person that comes into my life and I just wish that I have more time to spend knowing and building relationship but I don’t hold time and there is only 24 hours a day. Nothing much I could do with that but spend it wisely.

I may view things differently than others would normally do but try to open your mind. I belive, I am not a bad person. If you see me that way, then suit yourself. But I don’t think I have done anything to harm anybody. If I have caused you harm, then I am sorry.

I am happy, and I hope you are as well.

Enjoy Life!

Majority of that people who hates me, envies me. So, to my haters: I am sorry, but you hating me, just makes me more proud of myself. Not just because I am that special person whom you bother to think or hate everyday, but because I think I must be popular and could be seen. It is better than not to be known

Anyways, I miss my friends (To my haters: YES, of course I still have a FEW, but those I know are true … and probably knows me more than you). I don’t or could not hang out with them as offen as we did before, but I just hope we could hang out together again in the future.

I miss Chubby:

• I miss the card reading that tells me about my future.
• I miss the kiss in which Yen2x would say “EW”.
• I miss the sermons of me having bad choices of men.
• I miss the confidence that he gives me. Saying that I should go with him to see his relatives and pretend to be his girlfriend because I qualify to be one; His words: You are beautiful and I am handsome, You have car and I do too .. we are a match. = I know I laughed when he told me that, but that was just sooo sweet … I could not forget that.
• I miss the calls and texts.

I miss my boy toys:

• I miss those admirations.
• I miss the gifts.
• I miss the dates.

I miss Vini:

• I miss having a Miztiza friend who is a bit crazy.
• I miss the showing of dog pictures.
• I miss the story telling.

I miss my former classmates:

• I miss the crazy and noisy classroom.
• I miss the one of a kind comment of teachers.
• I miss the cheating – sharing is loving.
• I miss the little things we notice about our teachers.
• I miss having crushes.

To those whom I haven’t mentioned. THANKS, I know you are just there to be with me and comfort me in times of needs. We communicate, so just hold on Dear friend. I am crazy sometimes, I know that … bear with me … you are my friend, so I know you will because you understand me … if you can’t then GO … hehehe

I love you friends …

I have plans to open up or refresh my other blog. So a week ago, I asked someone to create a logo for me that would match that site. Last monday, I had seen the firsl logo created, it was cute, but doesn’t fit what I asked them to do. Days after, I have seen the second logo and it really doesn’t impress me, again some of my instructions were not followed. Yesterday, I had the last logo I asked from them, it still didn’t impress me, because all it was is just a copy and paste, and I could even do it myself!

I am so pissed now! Good thing I remember that my friend is somehow good in that field, so I asked him if he could do it for me. He said, he would try this afternoon. I just hope his work would ease the hate or anger I am feeling now. I just want to explode because I just want a simple thing, yet it could not be given to me. I am crossing my fingers, and I hope my friend would do it for me.

Whenever a friend asks me to go out, to watch a movie or do something, I reject it saying “I am too busy” to give them of their request. Yes, I am indeed super busy now and bonding with my family is enough for me. After all, if I want to discuss things, my friends online (some are my X’s and friends in real life but just communicating online) are there.

I want to share a certain situation in which I find DISTURBING!

A friend owes me money since the time of her wedding (that was December 2007). I have nothing to give at that time, so I asked my parents if they could lend money for her. So they did, after all she has been my friend since high school and she is really dear to me.

Recently, she asked me if I could lend her some more because she needs it. Still unpaid of her previous debts, but she was asking for more. Again, I could have given her, if I have the money, yet I myself is sunked in with all the debts I have (specially on the credit cards).

Two days ago, I read on her blog that she was asking for help for some people to be able to help her friend – financially. My reaction was – WTF! She can’t even pay me her debts, yet she is helping out other people? I can’t help but comment on her blog.

Then she replied stating that a friend was in critical condition and that needed some money for the hospital. Then she further explains that this friend is someone who referred her to the business that she is running now, and that even though she won’t earn anything from the things she is selling, she would give it out just to repay her debt to this friend in need.

OKAY! Reality check, her husband is working in a call center and earning a bit above average income, have a tuition fee for a private school to cover, she have this business of buy and sell and they have debts.

I remember an article I have read about debts, this was before I had credit card, but at first I didn’t belive this, until I was drowned with debts I had for my credit card. The article has one message to say, “It is ALWAYS bad to spend money that is not rightfully or trully yours.”

In my case, I have no problem since I would only be imprisoned if I could not pay my debts. On my friends case, she owes money to her friends, and still asking money from some? What kind of life she is living? Debt life?

For someone who is in the same situation as my friend, this I would suggest for you:

• If you have friends in critical condition and that needed money for the hospital. PRAY for them! Money could not save a life, it could only pay the bills (I have mentioned this to my friend as well).
• Pay your debts first, before you give to others. After all, it is pretty awkward to give if you don’t have some extra. You are not being fair to those whom you owe money to.
• Owe money to someone – one at a time. Pay first to someone you owe money to, before you ask for it again or ask someone else for it.

Also, my friend mentioned that I should not comment on her blog about personal things, because she is building a reputation on her online business and that blog is not for her personal use but for business.

Well, now it is business to ask for help for a friend in need in the hospital, as she has posted it on her blog. As I could see it, its not purely business if you state it that way.

But anyway, this has already been a long post … even I would not read this kind of long post

Good Luck to my so-called friend and to her business. May she be successful in it so that she could pay her debts and eventually be debt free.

To know more about my expenses, I pay for the following:

• Php 7,000 for the lot I bought at Jaro / month for 10 years
• Php 25,000 for my HSBC credit card – it has reached my limit. I KNOW! I am paying at least Php 1,000 for this every month just to keep it running.
• Php 25,000 for my Citibank credit card – it has reached my limit. YES AGAIN! I have closed this one, and paying at least Php 4,000 / month for 2 years.
• Php 999 / month for Smart Bro
• Php 799 / month for Smart Bro Plug-it
• Php 800 / month for my Globe Handyphone Plan
• 2 children to take care of: medicines, milk, diapers, toys
• Php 3,000 / month for insurance for 5 years

Somehow, I have manage to survive with these. I also pay the bills for our landline and car fuel if I have an extra.

I have debt of Php 10,000 from my Mom for my daughter’s 4th birthday, and I still owe her that much since I freakn lost the money that could have been my payment for her.

SO FOR THOSE WHO WANTED TO HELP ME OUT WITH THIS EXPENSES I HAVE. I WOULD SURELY ACCEPT YOUR OFFER. THANK YOU!

He told me that a person I once knew is hitting on his friend.

Let us call this person “GO” for it would be hard to explain without a codename.

As far as I am concerned this GO have a GF and let us call her “MO.” I also thought that GO is head over heels in love with MO and that is loyal to her. So, I asked my friend, “Is your friends named MO?” He answered me no, and that GO is currently courting his friend, which means, it is another girl.

Well, somehow it brough ease into my heart knowing that I am not hard to love. Some people just don’t know how to do it!

I then have a chit chat with my friend for a long lost communication. If before, we were in a stage of getting to know each other, now we were faced with a situation in where we were getting to know our self.

I then realized that both of us have something in common. We are massochist, but his is worst than mine.

Let me tell you a story about me and being in love. Once upon a time, I have this crush on a chubby person. I thought that I would be happy if I have him on my world. I was able to get his heart, but when I did, I lost the sense of challenge and felt bored being with him. This goes on to all of my relationships. So do you think I know how to love? Is it love that I am looking for or just a challenge in life? I have yet to find out.

This is me:

• I love being ignored, because it challenges me to make things have its twist and most of the time I get the power over this.
• I love being the other woman, because it is a challenge not to get caught by the real one. – Yet, I often wonder how MEN could do it – ha ha ha
• I love being tortured emotionally, yet I don’t like watching movies with sad endings.

My friend however loves to be hurt physically, but I don’t like that … I would fight back if you slap me or spank me

It’s good to have X’s arround as a friend. After all, they are the people whom you have showed your true personality and knows you in and out. They give good advices as well, based on how they know you and how you would react on things. I love being with my X’s if before I plan my world arround them, now I realized, they are just there to keep my world going round

If I say I love you X. It would mean way different than the I love you I sent out before … way way different. After all, I don’t have the lust for them now … HE HE HE … just the feeling of need for someone to talk to. I am glad I still have them on my side …

Thanks for being there … and I love you dear friend!

Well since Gabriel went into our house during the anniversary of my parents. They invited us to join them in their house blessing yesterday.

Hannah was excited to go at Gabriel’s house again. So when I asked her to do something yesterday, she was obidient.

In preparation for the blessing, we slept yesterday afternoon to have enough energy to go at Gabriel’s house that evening.

So when we arrive at Gabriel’s house, my daughter got a hold of our digital camera and took pictures of all the visitors or just anything she would like to take a pic of. She became the cute camera kid at the event.

The Lee’s house is beautiful and they served delicious food during the event. Congrats!

Hannah took these pictures:

Gabriel seems surprised when he saw Hannah taking his picture while he was eating.

Gabriel and his friends.

Me eating.

My food.

I took some pictures of her and Gabriel:

Again unplanned, but Hannah and Gabriel wore same color suit.

The news will be out soon, but no names will be mentioned. If you know me, you might know who the person is. But I will be very good in covering the real identity

Finally, it has been revealed that Shy is indeed Farina Runkle.

Know more about Shy in Pinoy Big Brother House.

Here are the rules:

Remove one (1) question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag eight (8) people in your list. List them out at the end of this post. (I changed Q # 9)

1. At what age do/did you wish to marry?

When I was younger, I was thinking of being married before 30. I remember one of my X-BF told me, if you are still not married when you reach the age of 30, I will have to put you on a shut-gun wedding. Funny that he said that, perhaps that was the time when he still can’t get over me, but he has a new love now, and I think he doesn’t wish of that to happen. In less than 4 years I’ll be 30, so he might be wishing I would be married by then. he he he I hope so too … and I hope to someone I love and will love me for eternity and that we are happy.

2. What color do you like most?

Green. I could just imagine there’s a tree and green grass around it and me sitting under the tree. Peaceful … beautiful.

3. Have you ever shoplifted?

No

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

The place in where my love one is … it burdens me to think I could not touch him, hug him, kiss him … when I wanted to.

5. Which part of you that you hate the most?

Stretch marks, those things … I could not go naked and take a shot of myself

6. When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do?

CRY! I don’t stop myself from crying

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?

My strength … strength to remember the people around me … and strength to be able to carry myself so that I wont be a burden to the people around me.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

Put up a good business, save some.

9. What are you doing to earn?

Have a regular job and a bit of extra.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you:

Confident, Loving, Responsible

11. How do you cope with boredom?

Depends on the situation, but here are my actions: drive, shop, games, sleep … oh I almost forgot … fight

12. Till now, what is the moment that you regret the most?

Hmm … being stupid to tell someone about my desperations in life that ruined our relationship … I dunno what could have happened to me if I didn’t do so … but thinking about it … it was so stupid of me to do that!

13. Which type of person do you hate the most?

LIAR … thats all it!

14. What is your ambition?

To have a house of my own, income that could cover the needs of my family and be happy.

15. If you had one wish, what would you wish for?

World Peace! <– naks!

16. How did you celebrate New Year?

With sleepy family

17. It is already 2008, do you have a new year’s resolution?

Get things DONE!

18. What do you look forward to in 2009?

I am 1 step closer to my dreams

19. Are u a physical fighter or talker?

Talker … but could be physical when pushed to the limit.

20. Are you in love?

YES! It’s  a great feeling to have … why lose it

I Tag:

1. Glady
2. Marcos
3. Mawe
4. Kit
5. Patadyong
6. Bevelyn
7. Tom
8. Laila