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I don’t buy things for myself now. Even if my salary is above average, It’s not enough to finance the needs of my family.

I am a single parent, and an only child. Often, I would think that what will happen to me in the future, or to my family if my salary won’t be enough? Well, I guess I just have to work for my dreams to come true.

Anyways, my Mom bought me shirts. Actually, pretty much everything I am wearing everyday are either things given to me by my parents or cousin.

I guess being a Mom is like that huh? You just get too old for them, you’ll always be their baby. I am kind of like that to my kids too. Even I know they have millions of toys already, most of them broken within minutes after having it. That never stopped me from buying them more, even though my money is just enough for that.

Selflessness of being a Mom!

I love Saturday’s and Sunday’s because its those days I get to spend most of my time with my family, especially with my kids.

I used to think that having kids would be a burden, and that what scared me before when I got pregnant.  I must admit it was hard having a baby, but it didn’t stop me to have another one.

It was really a fulfilling experience having to see my children grow the way they are now. It somehow made me proud of myself. My children are so sweet and they are showy of their love.

I want to share what happened awhile ago.

My daughter walked in, in my room with a pack of chaymito in one hand and bananas in the other. She hopped into my bed and gave me a banana and chaymito. These are the moments that makes me feel happy being a Mom. I know I am not perfect, but it doesn’t stop my kids from loving me.

Kids are great and I am happy God gave me the perfect kids for me.

Life is good!

If you are close to me, then you might know that my Mom is not actually my best friend kind of Mom. In fact, in most of the days of our lives, we spent it arguing with each other. This morning was kind of different. It was one of the rare days that Mom would surprise me with her Mommy power.

What happened?

Well, I have been working my ass out to cope up with the financial needs in the house and my Mom knows that I do my best in everything. Even if we argue a lot, she knows that she brought me up well and that I am a responsible person.

So, when I arrived home from the office she asked, ”Aren’t you going to sleep yet?” I answered, “No, just finishing up some things to be able to work smoothly next week.” She then went down stairs, and when she came back, she brought me a cup of hot noodles. With a smile on my face, I said thanks. We had a bit of a chit-chat then I told her I am just gonna sleep now then work on things later when I wake up. She then leaves the room smiling.

I can’t help but appreciate her being a Mom when she does that, and maybe its good the she rarely do that for me to appreciate her greately.

Being a Mom is not a simple thing. Not all women are blessed to have this gift. God had choosen me to be a mother of two at a young age. I admit that I don’t think I was ready for such responsibility when I got pregnant, but I let His will be done. So, I take on love and life with an additional two precious lives attached to me.

Like my Mom, I think I am not the best friend kind of Mom, because often times when I correct my daughter, I lose patience and shout at her. But, that doesn’t stop us from loving each other. It hurts me when I do those kind of things. STRESS just sucks the hell out of me most of the time, that I could not control my temper. However, I do my best in avoiding those situations.

So, my daughter may be scared of me when I get angry, but at least she knows well enough that she could count on me for comfort. Just awhile ago, she went into my room bringing a fake flower.

She comes closer and tells me, “Mommy, this is for you.” I smiled and kissed her. She then snuggled with me in my bed and told me, “I locked my room.” She then covered her ears, “Lola Mommy is going to shout at me.” I smiled and say, “It’s okay. Mommy will handle it. Just go to sleep so that Lola Mommy won’t have the chance to shout at you.” So, not long after our talk, I heard a snore. She had fallen asleep while I was writing this post.

This is a beautiful day. I am feeling the love of the family and that just inspires me to work my ass out.

True, because today my daughter won an iPod Touch! I am a proud Momma. See this video of an iPod Touch. I just can’t wait to hold it.

My daughter watched the movie with Chuckie doll in it. I know it is not right for her. She tells my mom that she is scared, yet if my mom changes the TV channel she would cry because she wants to watch Chuckie.

Anyway, we sleep with lights on last night because she is scared to sleep in the dark.

I really think that Chuckie is too brutal for her to watch.

My mom told me, that my daughter likes watching horror because when I was pregnant, I would often watch those kind of films.

Last Saturday when my family went out to shop together, I bought my kids sunglasses. They both love wearing it and they did when we attended mass last Sunday.

Here are the pictures:

Plus my daughter really needs it now since she have sore eyes.

My daughter is asking for chocolate every morning she wakes up. This is because of the reward I have been given her. Now, she is interested to learn because she wanted to get a price.

This was taken during our study session together. We are building a hills of chocolate then eat each hill at random, whatever color she guesses. If she could not guess it, I eat the hill being pointed

My kids loves chocolate, this is my son’s picture after he has eaten his favorite Cappuccino Dreams.

I am having a hard time teaching my daughter and getting her attention to focus on studying. Then I remember the Kung Fu Panda story. The master was having a hard time teaching the Panda on a regular way, while later he realized that the Panda already have the skills, but only when food is involve. So the master taught the Panda what he needs to learn with the help of food.

My daughter loves chocolate, and I thought maybe same strategy would be effective for her. So, I tried it last night. We studied her lessons, and when she gets the right answer, I give her one piece of coated hershey kisses.  IT WORKED! She is excited to answer the questions given to her and wait for her reward. She also detects colors correctly by the color coatings of the hershey kisses, because I told her that she could only eat those kisses whom she could name the correct color coatings. So far she knows red, yellow and blue. That seems to be a good start.

My daughter is just 3 years old and a brat as I always say. She wanted to do things on her own way and does not enjoy studying at all. If she gets a hint that she is being taught, she would make a scene just to get out of that situation.

My daughter is a kid, studying as Kinder 1 in a private school in where I graduated my elementary and high school and I know she needs to be taught academically, but is it necessary that she would be full focus on her academic subjects and left her other activities hanging? She is a KID and I wanted her to enjoy life, because time is gold and she will never be a kid again.

I enroll her on ballet because she loves to dance, and she loves to show off her ballet skills whenever she plays with our neighbors.

My mother doesn’t have enough patience to teach my daughter things she needs to learn about her subject in school. And so do I. That is why I let the family on her father side take care of her during school days and teach her what she needs to learn. I was expecting they would do that, plus the fact that her other activities won’t be affected – her ballet. Her ballet class is only once a week and not even for an hour. But, they choose not to let her attend her ballet class because they wanted to teach her some academic lessons.

As I mentioned, my daughter does not enjoy studying. So it would be useless to force her to study and left the activity she likes most unattended.

With this, I will be reminded that the family is too easy to give up, or too easy to get out of responsibility. May they find peace with that kind of mental capacity.

Anyway, a friend of mine told me that he knows someone that is lazy to study during elementary to high school, but when college came, the person graduated Cum Laude.

I don’t study as well. I was brought up with no tutor, no help from anybody. I remember when I was young I used to ask my mom to help me with my assignment, but all she could tell me is that “Your lessons are too advance, we don’t have like that before and I don’t know what to teach you.” With that, I learn things on my own, and I am proud I was able to. I am just an average student, yet with the ability to learn things on my own. I have been put to a position in where I manage people. Yes, a manager for an average lazy student, now a hardworking professional.

I know a lot of people who studies hard, even memorize a book, but they do not succeed in life. Why so? Not everything is written in the books, but mind could explore so many things without having a book. Where did people get the idea to make a book anyway, to invent something unusual, to have an internet, etc. Did they read it from books? I don’t know, I am not fun of reading.

Anyway I am just expressing something here. Thanks for reading.

It is not really about studying, it is enjoying life as it is and learning while doing so.