I feel at peace right now. So, I am writing this with a clear mind.

I know there are people who doesn’t like me, but who doesn’t have someone disliking them? Even “Saints” have those. So, who am I to be more “goody” than they are?

So, what do I have to say to my haters?

“If you have nothing good to say, SHUT the #@^% UP!”

I think for now, I consider that as an accomplishment! If you know me personally, I WAS a “war-freak” but I guess when you have almost everything you wanted in life, you just learn how to understand and symphatize with others.

So what changed me?

Firstly, I would like to mention LOVE. That word is complicated, but one reason why I believe in “God” is because I believe in love. As they say, God is Love! I am in love with a person I know who loves me as well. On what level you might ask? Well, to the point, that we’ve faced teenage life together, learned love and those other “first” special things. We hated each other at one point, but things just have its own way of linking us back together. Most of the time, we’re friends who openly discuss things about life in general. Do we understand each other? I guess pretty much, yes! We learned to understand each other, by knowing each others background. After all, he is the only man I have known for the longest time in my life and remained to be in touch. He accepts me for who I am – FULLY! He is not funny, but he makes me happy.

So, with Love comes LUST? To be honest, I guess TV has been helpful in my case. Whether TV is making me crazy, or it is just the best therapy for this kind of situation. Did I mention, my love and I are worlds apart? If I haven’t, well now you know we are. There’s only one thing he asked of me, “be good.” So, I do it the very best. Let’s go back to TV. I haven’t had sexual partner for quite some time now, so I watch TV to somehow fill that patch of my life Not that I watch porn and satisfy myself, but I guess just seeing those romantic movies (mostly romantic comedy) and seeing those people making love, is satisfying enough for me. I don’t play with myself if that is what you are thinking. I plainly watch it and let my heart feel the love. So porn is not effective on me, I am more into seeing the “love” in the story, rather than the “ahh.. ahh.. ohhh” thing.

I love my FAMILY! Quote from Lilo and Stitch, “This is my family. It’s small and it’s broken, but it’s good. Yeah, it’s good.” My family is just perfect for me.

One important aspect in life is MONEY, so do I have that? I don’t earn as much as most of the people around me, but I earn enough to slowly get on my feet. I know I would get to the point in where I would accomplish all of my dreams. So, now I am working hard on achieving it and enjoying my career as I go along with it.

With the busy schedule I have, it was hard for me to be in touch with my FRIENDS. In life, as we experience things, we learn from it and GROW. I’ve lost a few friends and gained a lot. In friendship, I have learned that it is important to have a balanced give and take relationship, because if one thing is short, then it would just fall off.

I value each person that comes into my life and I just wish that I have more time to spend knowing and building relationship but I don’t hold time and there is only 24 hours a day. Nothing much I could do with that but spend it wisely.

I may view things differently than others would normally do but try to open your mind. I belive, I am not a bad person. If you see me that way, then suit yourself. But I don’t think I have done anything to harm anybody. If I have caused you harm, then I am sorry.

I am happy, and I hope you are as well.

Enjoy Life!

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